Never lose your heart in the pursuit of becoming elite.
- 日髙生智 NEWORLD9999
- May 18
- 4 min read
This time, I want to talk about how blindly chasing the path of an “elite” can eventually destroy your sense of self.
By “elite,” I mean someone who achieves results, is relied on by others, and admired by society.
For this discussion, I’ll unapologetically use the contents of my short story 『目覚めた龍は無自覚に笑う。』.
If you haven’t read it yet, please do.
Also, this article is partly connected to another topic I discussed before: “A World That Suppresses Your Nature Creates Bullying” If that interests you, feel free to check it out as well.
Why did Tsuyoshi bully others?
In the story, the one committing bullying was Tsuyoshi.
He represents exactly what society calls an “elite.”
He is powerful.
Society praises him as the next guardian.
He is admired by everyone.
He already possessed the position that everyone longs for.
But he was supposed to be happy
As many of you probably noticed, there was almost no obvious reason for him to mentally collapse.
Sure, there were concerns:
His teacher still didn’t fully acknowledge him as the next guardian.
There was a potential threat named Ryu.
But honestly?
The teacher simply hadn’t acknowledged him yet.
And Ryu’s abilities hadn’t even awakened.
He could have ignored it all.
Yet Tsuyoshi kept staring directly at those fears himself.
Here lies the contradiction
You might think:
“Isn’t it normal to eliminate potential threats?”
But here’s the contradiction.
Human society constantly teaches us:
“If you become an elite, you will be happy.”
And Tsuyoshi had already obtained that position.
Even if he wasn’t fully recognized as a “guardian,” he already stood at the top.
So he should have been happy.
Yet he kept falling apart
Even if some people didn’t acknowledge him, society still admired him.
Even if Ryu was a threat, Tsuyoshi was still the one recognized by the world.
So he could have simply thought:
“I’ll maintain this position and continue helping others.”
That should have been enough.
There was no reason for him to resort to bullying.
Yet he became consumed by anxiety and eventually crossed irreversible lines.
Why?
Because he never wanted that life
Deep down, he hated the life of constantly living up to everyone’s expectations.
The more people expected from him, the more trapped he became.
The answer lies in the Moon
The key here is the “Moon” in astrology.
The Moon represents:
a place where you feel safe,
a state where you can simply be yourself,
a space where you can breathe without forcing yourself.
His true nature
His Moon placement is:
Leo 17° — “A choir not wearing robes” 12th House
In short:
pressure,
expectations,
being treated as a “guardian,”
were themselves sources of stress for him.
In other words, he was walking down a path that constantly hurt him.
To put it bluntly:
He was being an idiot.
Why did this happen?
The answer is simple.
He completely fell for the idea that:
“Elite = Success”
And the worst part?
He actually had the talent to achieve it.
That’s what made it dangerous.
“Being capable” and “being happy” are not the same thing
He had the ability to become an elite.
But deep down, he never truly wanted that life.
So despite obtaining the position everyone admired, he was swallowed by stress and anxiety.
The real problem was not his teacher.
Not Ryu.
The real problem was that he kept forcing himself down a path that destroyed his own heart.
Yet he misunderstood the cause of his suffering.
And as a result, he spiraled into:
bullying,
violence,
and ultimately the collapse of his life.
Personally, I believe bullying itself is built on a kind of “system”
But explaining that would take us too far off track.
So I’ll leave a link here for those interested.
So what should he have done?
This does NOT mean:
“Then striving to become elite is bad.”
That’s not my philosophy at all.
Wanting success is fine.
Aiming higher is fine.
Achieving results is fine.
But:
Destroying your own heart in the process is absolutely wrong.
The real answer
The truth is not:
“If you become elite, you’ll be happy.”
The real truth is:
“If you can become successful while still being yourself, then you can truly be happy.”
What this world keeps neglecting
Modern social ideology neglects the human heart — and the things that truly matter to us as human beings — far too much.
That’s why people become obsessed with nothing but:
money,
power,
achievements,
and influence.
They abandon their own hearts in the process.
And then, in order to fill that emptiness, they become even more dependent on authority, status, and results.
“I want to be acknowledged more.”
“I want to rise even higher.”
They get swallowed by that vicious cycle, yet remain completely unaware that it’s happening to them.
And that’s how these “monsters of self-interest and power” are born so easily in this world.
Final thoughts
So this time, through the character Tsuyoshi, I wanted to talk about this:
“If you choose the path of an elite, you must also protect your own heart.”
“Then what should I do?”
Of course, I prepared something for that too.
Before chasing results, take care of yourself first.